April 7/2010

Today has been a very perplexing day....Over the years, I have spent much time Understanding and accepting all types of people. My ex husband who has had a serious problem with booze and drugs has lost everything. The better word might be 'Thrown' away everything including our 10 yr marriage!..I have tried to help him the past 3 1/2 yrs but now....I am fed up!
I gave with my eyes open and was NOT manipulated.. I chose to help.
Today though? I made a decision and it is final..........I no longer want to have an amicable ending nor will I care to be his only friend. It does NOT work!!
Helping a drug user/alcoholic Does Not work! ...They really do need to lose it all and scrape the bottom..........I regret nothing when it comes to helping and giving but I refuse to be part of the problem....Today...April 8th 02:00 hrs...I have completely deleted all compassion from my heart for him. I believe that he will do better because of my letting him starve. If he Od's then so be it!
Perhaps, it is in the cards soon...perhaps, God shall make a trophy out of his trashy life...
I do not know but I hope and pray for the best for him. It is all I can do now and the most important thing I should do for him...!

April 6/2010...

I am tired today but excited about Life. I have the 7 training videos scheduled for shooting at the end of the month and even though, there are obstacles to be hurdled...I remain positive that each video will be completed as planned. I am still waiting on the Final Edit of my first book...now that one has me a bit frazzled.
Today looks like a great day to accomplish more things....
I have my check list...
I have my cup of coffee...
I have my Passion for Life...
I have my good people behind me...
What more can anyone ask for? :)
Have a great day and an awesome week everyone!!