"The Difficulty of Losing a Loved one..."

                                                 

                                                   " The Difficulty of Losing a Loved one "


I am pretty much an expert at experiencing Deaths, but to be honest? There is no coping with losing

a dear friend, who must as well be Family!

Today, I found out about my Dearest female Friend and Mentor, Karmela.

Even that name, alone tells you how beautiful she was! I admired her and looked up to her.

She loved me, because she understood me and I understood her.

I had never met anyone else, who gave as much and was envied by so many for no reasons!

What made our relationship so special, was that we were so similar, even with our past experiences

and mistakes! Uncanny...

We had the same Codes of conduct and beliefs. It was amazing!


How am I coping? Not so well! Here I am. Feeling so much sorrow and guilt that I was not there

at her side! I guess, crying and is one way of coping. Tomorrow, I will go see her old house, where

I used to visit her and just reminisce and cry , if I must...


The poison of Guilt and Sorrow must be dealt with as soon as possible or it can fragment your mind.

I just wanted to write this little bit to express my support to those, who have lost others in their lives!

Just a few months back, last July, I lost my Male Mentor to suicide!

Sometimes, it is so hard to be strong for others, who depend on me. I am getting very tired and worn

out.

I wanna say Thank You to those, who have been at my side mentally, physically and spiritually

during every time, I lose a dear friend!

KARMELA , ALWAYS TOLD ME I CAN DO ANYTHING, IF I DON'T LET SADNESS GET ME! She knew my heart so well!

I hope I can do that for Karmela; for Alan W.; for Jeff (aka Teacher); for Ray Beaulieu and for those

friends, who still Believe in me!  Thank You again for all the Love and Support!


Peace!